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17:28 - Wednesday, Oct. 19, 2005
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03:02 - Saturday, Sept. 17, 2005
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got a LiveJournal.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/supergirlkat/

might update this tommorrow but till i get round to it catch me at my new funkeh LJ :D

and add me if you want to.....

12:16 - Friday, Aug. 26, 2005
two parties, an interview and a funeral......
Firstly, how sorry am I? I couldn’t believe that it had been so long since I updated this thing. I’ve just been busy! A crap excuse, right? But it’s a true one.

So the holiday to S.F is defunked. Gone. A dream. Thomson are being a-holes and not letting us change the date, name on the tickets or get a refund. So there you go £1100 out of the pocket of Miss Kat and into the pockets of Mr Thomson and his make up bitches. Grrrr.
We had one option we could have taken……go as friends. But we both knew it was out of the question; it would have been like breaking up all over again. And S.F + alcohol + being alone = sex with an ex… and I do NOT want that to happen.

In other, more exciting, more happy news ……… my best mate and I are going on holiday in November!!! Woooo, so when I would have been going to SF instead im going to some place hot with plenty of drink, men and sunshine. She really is one of the bestest mates ever. I know we will have a great time, I know its just what I need and I know its gonna rock. *squeeeeee*

I didn’t get to meet Jen. She was in the same country as me, only 40 mins away and I didn’t get to meet her. Dagnamit.

It was just bad timing. I had my interview, my uncle passed away (his funeral is in a few hours… L ) I had no way of getting home after the show and I had no where to stay when I got there. So no jen for me. I feel bad. It would have been lovely, but it just wasn’t feasible this week.

I am not looking forward to this funeral. ( Well, does anyone ever look forward to them? ) but what I mean is, it’s a cremation and ive never been to one before. Im kinda scared as to what to expect. Its my dads brother and he is normally the person I stick to like glue at family funerals. But he’s travelling in one of the black cars, so its just me and my brothers. (and my other family but you know what I mean).

Talking of my brothers, the youngest older one…..(make sense?) is flying to Las Vegas tomorrow to get married to his lovely fiancé.
Im very excited for them both and not afraid to admit I got a little emotional at her hen party and his stag do. Yes I went. He wanted to show me how he looked in his kilt, so I went for like an hour had a few drinks with the men and came home! I swear one of them thought I was the stripper when someone mentioned ‘nurse’.

Oh oh oh oh …I had my interview…..and……I got in! *yay*. Or not. Im kinda nervous about it now. it’s a biiiiiiiig step, a three year course, at £3000 at MASTERS level?!?!?! Who the feck am I kidding!!!

I’ll give it a go ya’ll but im not promising anything!!!!

And that’s my life as it stands……

Listening to: Connie Francis ‘If It Takes Forever’
Addicted to: Ultimate Force on DVD
The current mood of InsanePixie at www.imood.com

03:53 - Sunday, Aug. 07, 2005
night hawk
meh.

i cant sleep. not for any reason you understand. its not like the old i cant sleep of the last few weeks which had me in tears, no its simply that i had a little nap this afternoon and now i cant sleep.

not that ive tried. but im too wired to even think of bed.

im shopping online. im searching for things i didnt even know existed. im watching crap teleshopping and thinking how good a magic bullet actually is. i mean, if you can make omlettes AND smoothies in it - whats not to love!?!

i spoke to g earlier. turns out we probably cant even change the booking, which takes the choice out of my hands.

its ok. im begining to feel like we can be freinds. not right now, but soon. maybe in a few months or so, i can call him or whatever. i dont know if we will ever meet up again, i really dont. reminds me of a line from Snow Patrol's "Run" ; to think i might not see those eyes, makes it so hard not to cry"
its true. it is. but i know we can both get over this.

maybe it just wasnt meant to be. maybe things will change. i dont know. but i know he's a freind, someone i will always be able to rely upon and trust.

no big arguments, no fights, it was just something that happened.

the thought of another man right now repulses me. i dont want anyone elses arms around me, anyone else kissing me. right now, its just me and the fleecy pyjamas in bed with my teddybears. and i kinda like it that way, for now.

its giving me peace of mind which i desire so much.

ive dealt with the worst loss of all. but this loss, the loss of true love, if it ever gets lost, is a different pain. its a different feeling of loss and sadness. but i know i can deal with it.
he told me he was proud of me for being so strong.
little does he know i nearly cracked up in the few days after we broke up.

but now im ok. im ok. i can say that and i know its true.

well.......it is at this time.....

11:42 - Saturday, Aug. 06, 2005
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Andy Williams - The Impossible Dream.mp3

TEST TEST TEST

16:06 - Thursday, Jul. 28, 2005
a new day
I felt like a change. I felt like something that wasn’t related to Him. Something that wouldn’t remind me of sad moments. So I got Orlando. Nice, eh?

I feel ok today. Id be lying if I said I was so much better and that my life was perfect again. That wont happen again for a while, but im working on it.

I havent spoken to him; I don’t want to. I have to move on. We have some things to get sorted e.g the holiday, but we can sort that out in a week or two.

Right now its all about me. Sounds selfish? Maybe a little, but it’s the way its got to be for me to even half survive this.

Im selling tickets to shows that we had booked on ebay. So far its at £81 with almost 9 and a half days left! Im gonna get me some shoes!

Speaking of that, I’ve been doing some retail therapy which includes new make up, hair accessories, bags shoes and perfume. Yay.

Also, bizarrely my online shopping has stretched to Tesco.com.

I know I know! But I had to get some groceries delivered. And no I couldn’t just drive to the store as my car has packed in, I have no idea whats wrong with it, it just wont start or make any noise at all when I turn the key. So yah. And no, I cant get a bus either cos I live in the middle of nowhere… so you know…..buses come like once every six months!

So tomorrow the tesco man will bring me my bread milk and heat magazine and I’ll need to get my mate to come pick me up before I go to her house for dinner!

Thank God my daddys home on Saturday. When he left, he left me with my boyfriend, whom both myself and my family thought id be with forever, and he’s returning to a daughter who cries every so often, feels good at other times and just wants a cuddle from her daddy.

As Frenchie said in Grease “The only man a girl can rely on is her Daddy”.

00:21 - Wednesday, Jul. 27, 2005
feelings
so thats it.

its over. he's now my ex. im now his.

i cant beleive after three years it has come to this. sometimes im ok and i know i can get on with life, other times i feel like i cant even breathe without him.

i sit and cry and it doesnt help. i sob and i sob and it doesnt help. why doesnt it help? i want it to. i want it to ease the pain.

i cant deal with this. right now i want to curl up and die. in half an hour i'll feel better and i wont. its made so doubly hard by the fact that my dad isnt here. the second hardest thing ive ever went through and the two people i need most arent here.

one is with me in spirit but i need her comforting hugs. the other is on holiday, that he deserves so much, and i dont want to ruin that for him.

i finally understand what some song lyrics actually mean....

"I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is im lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you"

i know, because i am.

i keep trying but i keep failing.

i need his arms to make me feel safe, i need his jokes to make me roll my eyes, i need his kisses on my forehead to make it all better.

i just feel so alone.

20:07 - Sunday, Jul. 24, 2005
broken heart
I dont quite know what to write or why.

I feel like my heart is breaking into a million bits and each bit has been stomped on from a great height.

He said we should take a break. He said he needed to clear his head. He said he still loves me. He said he was with me because he wanted to be and if he didnt he wouldnt be with me. he just needed to clear his head, fix things, get things sorted.

I dont know how long that will take. I dont know if this means we are getting back together or if this is the end.

He said in a phonecall that "if the worst comes to the worst we would be freinds".

I dont know if i can handle just being freinds with him.

I feel sick. I want to cry but i cant.

I phoned in sick to work. I cant face being the kind caring one. I NEED time. I need him. I need his arms around me telling me its ok, making it ok, like he always does.

But im not getting them.

Ive resited the urge to call him. Its been four days. Not a lot, but when you speak to someone twice a day at least for three years - four days is a long time.

I miss him. So much.

Please God let us get back together.

Please.

20:07 - Sunday, Jul. 24, 2005
broken heart
I dont quite know what to write or why.

I feel like my heart is breaking into a million bits and each bit has been stomped on from a great height.

He said we should take a break. He said he needed to clear his head. He said he still loves me. He said he was with me because he wanted to be and if he didnt he wouldnt be with me. he just needed to clear his head, fix things, get things sorted.

I dont know how long that will take. I dont know if this means we are getting back together or if this is the end.

He said in a phonecall that "if the worst comes to the worst we would be freinds".

I dont know if i can handle just being freinds with him.

I feel sick. I want to cry but i cant.

I phoned in sick to work. I cant face being the kind caring one. I NEED time. I need him. I need his arms around me telling me its ok, making it ok, like he always does.

But im not getting them.

Ive resited the urge to call him. Its been four days. Not a lot, but when you speak to someone twice a day at least for three years - four days is a long time.

I miss him. So much.

Please God let us get back together.

Please.

07:35 - Monday, Jul. 11, 2005
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sorry for the lack of updates

im on night shift.

i sleep now

07:42 - Wednesday, Jul. 06, 2005
stolen from cass

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Katrina Veronica
Birthday:8th Jan 1982
Birthplace:Lanark, Scotland
Current Location:Motherwell, Scotland
Eye Color:hazel
Hair Color:dark brown
Height:5'5"
Right Handed or Left Handed:right
Your Heritage:scottish and irish
The Shoes You Wore Today:at work my pink theatre clogs, coming home my red high heeled ankle boots (no they arent as tarty as they sound!)
Your Weakness:chocolate
Your Fears:being alone, dying alone
Your Perfect Pizza:bbq chicken
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:loose weight and study for my masters
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:LOL (half the time im not even smiling)
Thoughts First Waking Up:am i meant to be at work?
Your Best Physical Feature:my eyes
Your Bedtime:whenever i feel like it
Your Most Missed Memory:talking with my mum anywhere anytime. i miss her.
Pepsi or Coke:coke.
MacDonalds or Burger King:burger king
Single or Group Dates:i like them both! single is nice for romance, group is nice for fun and giggles
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:ewww
Chocolate or Vanilla:it depends....stupid question
Cappuccino or Coffee:neither...... yuk
Do you Smoke:nope
Do you Swear:not very often, only when i really really loose it!
Do you Sing:yes. but if you ask me if i CAN sing..... its a different matter
Do you Shower Daily:yes
Have you Been in Love:yes
Do you want to go to College:ive been
Do you want to get Married:yes in the future
Do you belive in yourself:at times
Do you get Motion Sickness:yes
Do you think you are Attractive:at times
Are you a Health Freak:at times
Do you get along with your Parents:yes i do, my dad is my best freind
Do you like Thunderstorms:i get scared but they are very pretty
Do you play an Instrument:i play drums, keyboard, piano and flute
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:yes
In the past month have you Smoked:no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:prescribed only
In the past month have you gone on a Date:yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:no. they suck. CADBURY'S RULE!
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:ewwwwwwwwwww no. yuk!
In the past month have you been on Stage:nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:nope (i hope not at least lol)
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:nope
Ever been Drunk:yes
Ever been called a Tease:yes
Ever been Beaten up:yes :(
Ever Shoplifted:no!
How do you want to Die:painlessly
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:a fairy princess
What country would you most like to Visit:canada
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:brown
Favourite Hair Color:brown
Short or Long Hair:short
Height:tall (over 6')
Weight:meh
Best Clothing Style:as long as hes comfy
Number of Drugs I have taken:illegal ones? none!
Number of CDs I own:gazillions
Number of Piercings:ears only
Number of Tattoos:ewww none - im not a truckdriver!!
Number of things in my Past I Regret:regret not living life to the full!

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

15:27 - Tuesday, Jun. 28, 2005
i knew it would be this....
You scored as Christianity. Your views are most similar to those of Christianity. Do more research on Christianity and possibly consider being baptized and accepting Jesus, if you aren't already Christian.

Christianity is the second of the Abrahamic faiths; it follows Judaism and is followed by Islam. It differs in its belief of Jesus, as not a prophet nor historical figure, but as God in human form. The Holy Trinity is the concept that God takes three forms: the Father, the Son (Jesus), and the Holy Ghost (sometimes called Holy Spirit). Jesus taught the idea of instead of seeking revenge, one should love his or her neighbors and enemies. Christians believe that Jesus died on the cross to save humankind and forgive people's sins.

Christianity

71%

Islam

54%

Judaism

42%

Paganism

33%

Hinduism

29%

Buddhism

25%

Satanism

17%

agnosticism

13%

atheism

0%

Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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17:26 - Saturday, Jun. 25, 2005
another day......another layout
Hello.

Again I take a while to update. Then I fuck up the layout. Then I fuck it up again.
Then I fix it.

So here we are.

Its my day off! Yay!

Grant and I talked. And talked more. And I cried. And he got upset. And we talked.

Basically? We are going as we can….having fun….meeting up….going on holiday and giving us a go. So far? So good.

He even surprised me by booking flights up to me as a surprise!

I still have a little insecure niggle, but im insecure anyway and I always think hes going to leave me for some petite blonde with long legs and a thin waist. But that’s me, insecure. And im not going to change.

In other news?

My best mate left work on Thursday. We hugged and cried like you would NOT believe. my mate Johnny asked me if one of us was going to fight in the war. that’s what we were like, sobbing and crying like I would never see her again.

It was exactly 1 hour and 34 minutes after she left that we talked again.

On Friday I was constantly looking for her, and trying to remember that she wasn’t gonna be there for me to call and ask something.

I could still cry every time I think of it.

Anyways. Im gonna try and get someone to fix this damn thing and get the tagboad up.

Enjoy!

22:08 - Monday, Jun. 20, 2005
a long time coming.....
I know I know! Don’t look at me like that!

I haven’t updated in ages I know….!

Its not that I don’t care, or that I don’t think its important to place my thoughts on a teeny little part of the internet I call my own, its just that I’ve been busy. Silly excuse I know, but it’s the truth.

The blood tests were ok. Everything was ok. Except things are still happening with them that shouldn’t be. So yeah. Not quite the closure I had been hoping for, it was more of a line in pencil!
We shall see! I just need to chill and go with it.
But its hard when it affects me life, and who I am!

So much has happened I don’t know where to start. Firstly, my mate, mentor and well confidante is leaving work this week. So im sad about that. Very sad. Im going to miss her so much, and not because she’s the only one who gets my sense of humour in that place!
Its not that I wont see her ever again - of course I will - its just that she wont be there every day. There will be no more chats in the tea room, laughing with the docs, chilling me out during a huge emergency or long talks on the night shift.

She’s going to better and bigger things and I am so so happy for her, but yes, there is this little selfish part of me that just wants to cry because I will miss her so much.

Major thing part two. Or is it? Im not even sure myself.
My boyfriend and I had a long argument the other day. He said some things and I said some things, but what he said cut me to the bone.
“im not sure how I feel about you anymore”
I nearly died there and then. My heart stopped I swear, I just didn’t know what to feel or say. We had a long talk and he said he wanted us to continue as we were, and said that he didn’t know how he felt about a lot of things - he just didn’t know.

I am a little upset about it, I’d be lying if I wasn’t, but we had another little argument on msn and I told him I needed space.
So I got it.

Then we talked on the phone. He said he wanted us to be as we were, for things not to change, for us to have fun and just deal with it all.

Its been three days. We’ve talked about three times each day, and every time he is happy and tells me he loves me and that he cant wait to see me.

But now I feel so insecure about us as a couple.

I just wish I knew where I stood, and no matter how many times he tells me, I just cant quite get it.

17:49 - Wednesday, Jun. 01, 2005
hormonal ,,,,
ok. so this is the deal.

recently, well, the past five or six months, ive been having problems with my monthly visitors, ie, my periods.

they are coming and going as they wish and to put it bluntly there is something wrong. im not sure what, and im not sure if its serious or not, but there is a reason why its like this.

my hormones are crazy. im crying, im happy, im sad, im angry.

and im not sure why.

God Bless my boyfreind for putting up with me.

Ive had blood tests to check my hormones and my thyroid.

we'll see what happens.

22:40 - Sunday, May. 29, 2005
just another day
ok so work.

busy as usual, i get up at around 8 am and have a lovely morning shower. water is lovely and fresh and im singing away and happy. hmm what is wrong with me?

i get ready and head off to work for another day. its not too bad, as usual i need to be the obsetric nurse as no one else can do it. plus no one else but me can do orthopeadics. so fuck it. i dont care. its not my fault. realise that i do care and worry about the staff having to deal with ortho cases when im on to deal with babies. figure out that if babies have broken bones we're sorted.

turns out, however, that we have a vascular case. takes over 6 hours. am bored. realise i like ortho. and why.
new doc comes in and tells me his name is "paris". look around for hector and achilles. they are nowhere to be seen so i look around for nicole and nicky. they arent here either. realise this guy just has a silly name.

drive home from work. its lovely to be getting away from the building and i drive home with the sun setting behind me. all is lovely. realise i need to do the same tommorow. cry.

call boyfreind who is watching films and eating take away with a cold beer. tell him i hate him as i want to be there drinking wine and watching films. he laughs and tells me if i was there we wouldnt be wathching any films and tells me exactly what we would be doing. blush.

decide i need to see him soon. damn his sexy accent.

ive come to the conclusion that being very tired when i get home from work but too hyped to sleep is a bad thing.

debate over writing some fics or going to bed.

so goodnight ;)


"The only thing I've ever successfully made in the kitchen is a mess. And several small fires."

22:31 - Thursday, May. 26, 2005
a quickie
ok quick entry.

back to work tommoro after days off. sucketh it does.

missing my boyf. sucketh it does.

now have 8 days in a row to work. suketh it does.

but what doesnt suck is the caramel mcvities i bought. yum. and with my period here im all chocolated out.

FOOTBALLERS WIVES!!
OH DEAR LORD ABOVE. CONRAD. NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. :(

how can the pretty one be dead?!

and extra time is on now!

wooo hoooooooo


oh and by the way...


:: how jedi are you? ::

12:53 - Wednesday, May. 25, 2005
quiziness
Stolen from the Lovely Linny.

she rocks my boat.

*cough*

Aaaaaaaaaaaanyways.....

1. What time is it? 12.54

2. Name as appears on birth
certificate: Katrina Veronica Gordon

3. Nickname: Kat, Katie, Rina

4. Number of candles on last birthday cake: 23

5. Time you get up: Depends on what shift im on, it can be 5am, 6am, 7am... you get the idea...

6. Pets: eww no. too hairy.

7. Hair colour: very dark brown almost black

8. Piercings: Ears

9. Eyes: hazel

10. How much do you love your job? i do love it. its hard but i love it.

11. Hometown: Bonkle (seriously)

12. Residence: Motherwell

13. Favourite food: italian

14. Been to Africa? No

15. Been toilet papering? i dont get what this means...

16. Loved somebody so much it made you cry? Yes

17. Been in a car accident? no thank god

18. Croutons or bacon bits? bacon bits

19. Favourite day of the week? whatever day im off

20. Word or phrase? buffleonians!

21. Favourite Restaurant: Creme de la Creme, Popinjay

22. Favourite flower: white roses

23. Favourite drink: lemonade and lime

24. Favourite sport to watch? footie!

25. Favourite ice cream: malteasers ice cream bars

26. Disney or Warner? Disney

27. Favourite Fast Food Restaurant: uuuuuhhh possibly china one

28. What colour is your bedroom carpet? cafe cream

29. How many times did you fail your drivers test? four

30. Whom did you get your last e-mail from? some silly tarot bullshiter spam

31. Do you sing in the shower? Yes

32. Which store would you Max out your credit card? Top Shop or Jane Norman

33. What do you do most when you are bored? Go online

34. So are you married? Nope but im very serious with my boyf

35. Bedtime: whenever im tired!

36. Favourite TV show: Charmed, Bad Girls, Footballers Wives

38. Last person you went out to dinner with? My boyfreind

39. Ford or Chevy: fiat man!

40. Time you finished this e-mail ? 13:00

02:13 - Thursday, May. 19, 2005
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its late.

or early.

its cold but im loving the cold breeze blowing in through the window.

went to see kingdom of heaven tonight. bit crap. orli is hot. but we knew that already!

oh oh oh and only another £400 to pay for hols! wooo hooooooooooooooo!!

saw the CUTEST little crochet beanie hat today. pink and everything! to buy or not to buy this is the question!

can i just say how wonderful my boyf is? he really is my best mate.

awww.

tommorow we are gonna go to the spooky galleries of justice.
most huanted went there! aparently its dead scary!

yay!!

grant is heading off to star wars tommorow. i was invited but declined as....
a) its a lads night out
b) id be the only girl
c) i've never seen any star wars films
d) to watch them would take hours/days
e) all of the above

ao its a night in with the telly and some wine for me!

oh - and snuggles as grant feels guilty!

mwahaha!!
;)

13:02 - Sunday, May. 15, 2005
yayness
it was my lovely boyfreinds birthday yesterday.

yes he is now the same age as me. well, until january.

he loved my presents (yay) and he got some lovely stuff from his freinds and family.

it was such a fun day with balloons and cake and dinner and drink and sunshine!

yipee!

so yes.

i did, however, recieve a little shock in the morning.

but its all good. i hope.

im sure it can be worked out.

aaaaaaaah i love sunday mornings.

im just about to pop back into bed for some snuggles after a nice morning of walks and sunshine!!

yay for the weather!

yay for my holidays!

yay for everything!


happy birthday to you
fried tomatoes and stew
may all that you wish for
never ever come true

mwahahahahaha

13:02 - Sunday, May. 15, 2005
yayness
it was my lovely boyfreinds birthday yesterday.

yes he is now the same age as me. well, until january.

he loved my presents (yay) and he got some lovely stuff from his freinds and family.

it was such a fun day with balloons and cake and dinner and drink and sunshine!

yipee!

so yes.

i did, however, recieve a little shock in the morning.

but its all good. i hope.

im sure it can be worked out.

aaaaaaaah i love sunday mornings.

im just about to pop back into bed for some snuggles after a nice morning of walks and sunshine!!

yay for the weather!

yay for my holidays!

yay for everything!


happy birthday to you
fried tomatoes and stew
may all that you wish for
never ever come true

mwahahahahaha

13:02 - Sunday, May. 15, 2005
yayness
it was my lovely boyfreinds birthday yesterday.

yes he is now the same age as me. well, until january.

he loved my presents (yay) and he got some lovely stuff from his freinds and family.

it was such a fun day with balloons and cake and dinner and drink and sunshine!

yipee!

so yes.

i did, however, recieve a little shock in the morning.

but its all good. i hope.

im sure it can be worked out.

aaaaaaaah i love sunday mornings.

im just about to pop back into bed for some snuggles after a nice morning of walks and sunshine!!

yay for the weather!

yay for my holidays!

yay for everything!


happy birthday to you
fried tomatoes and stew
may all that you wish for
never ever come true

mwahahahahaha

17:20 - Friday, May. 13, 2005
hoooorah
hoooray!

now all i need to do is straighten the old hair and get the make up on.

then its off to the airport.

and woo hooooo.

im there!!

:D

07:30 - Thursday, May. 12, 2005
busy busy bee
so today im going to be a busy little bee.

ive got work till 5pm.

then the hairdressers.

then i need to head to ASDA and do some shopping.

then i need to go to my brothers.

then i need to take some stuff to my aunts.

and im starting work at 7 tommorow.

so i'll be sleepy.

but who cares?

as im off on holiday from 1pm tommorow

yipeeeeeeee

17:15 - Wednesday, May. 11, 2005
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Jolly good, wot! Anyone for tennis? That'll be ten ponies, guv. You're the epitome of everything that is english. Yey :) Hoist that Union Jack!

How British are you?

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jolly good.

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17:13 - Wednesday, May. 11, 2005
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How random are you?

this quiz was made by alanna

13:49 - Wednesday, May. 11, 2005
quziness
You are...
[ ] tall
[ ] in between
[x] short

[ ] blonde
[ ] redheaded
[x] brunette
[ ] black-haired


[ ] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[x] hazel eyed
[ ] gold eyed
[ ] grey eyed
[x] with glasses
[x] with contacts

[ ] with braces
[ ] with freckles
[x] with piercings
[ ] with tattoos
[x] and have long hair
[ ] and have short hair
[ ] and have mid-length hair

Your nationality includes...
[ ] Chinese
[ ] Indian
[ ] Taiwanese
[ ] Japanese
[ ] Hispanic
[ ] Nicoya
[ ] Puerto Rican
[ ] Chicana
[ ] Italian
[x] Scottish
[ ] Filipino
[ ] Dutch
[ ] French
[ ] German
[x] Irish
[ ] Greek
[ ] Portuguese
[ ] Polish
[ ] Korean
[ ] Jamacian
[ ] Canadian
[ ] Lithuanian
[ ] Native American
[ ] Russian
[ ] British
[ ] Danish
[ ] African
[ ] Scandanavian
[ ] Armenian
[ ] Finnish
[ ] other

Your favorite color(s) are?
[ ] red
[x] pink
[x] yellow
[ ] black
[x] green
[ ] blue
[x] white
[ ] silver
[ ] purple
[x] brown
[ ] orange

Some things you've done/played include...
[ ] cheerleading
[x] dancing
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[x] football
[ ] softball
[ ] wrestling
[x] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[x] basketball
[ ] baseball
[ ] golf
[x] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[x] hiking
[ ]kayaking
[x] camping
[x] horseback riding
[ ] marching band
[x] good ole' fashion sex!!!!!


You are sometimes...
[x] annoying
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] funny
[x] serious
[x] bubbly
[x] spazzy
[x] fun-loving
[ ]laid back
[ ] strict
[x] hyper
[x] weird

The music you like is?
[ ] rap
[x] rock
[x] pop
[ ] country
[ ] hip hop [Girly Rap]
[x] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[ ] Christian
[x]classical
[x] techno
[x] oldies
[x] the 80s
[ ]punk
[x] metal
[x] reggae
[x] goth
[ ] Latin
[x] 90's grunge
[x] musicals

The pets you have are?
[ ] cat
[ ] dpg
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[ ] rabbit
[ ] fish
[ ] bird
[ ] other

Clothes you like to wear are?
[x] plain t shirts
[ ] sweatshirts
[x] stockings
[x] high heels
[x] boots
[x] sneakers
[x] jeans
[x] pj pants
[x] boxers
[x] underwear
[x] dresses
[x] mini skirts
[ ] long skirts
[x] watches
[x] necklace
[x] hoop earrings
[x] toe socks
[x] flats
[x] halter tops
[x] stilletos
[x] band shirts
[ ] shorts
[ ] sleeveless shirts

How do you like to wear your hair?
[x] down
[x] ponytail
[x] pigtails
[x] messy bun
[x] half ponytail
[x] scrunched/curly
[ ] bun
[x] crimped
[x] with a bandana
[x] French braids
[ ] lots of little braids
[x] Gel
[x] hat
[ ] messy hot guy ha r
[x] sex hair
[ ] fauxhawk

You're mostly labeled as?
[ ] goth
[ ] emo
[ ] prep
[ ] punk
[ ] scene
[ ] nerd
[ ] ditzy
[ ] hyper
[ ] happy
[ ] everything
[ ] I hate labels! I'm just me!!!
[x] I have no idea

You eat?
[ ] dessert every night
[ ] no meat
[x] diet stuff
[x] healthy foods
[x] junk foods
[ ] a lot of carbs
[ ] lots of meat
[x] salad
[ ] seafood
[ ] Mountain Dew

A typical friday night...
[x] mall with your friends
[x] partying
[x] watching movies
[x] going to the club
[x] staying home
[ ] babysitting and getting $$
[x] hanging out w/ my friends
[x] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[x] working while your friends are out having fun

Currently you are...
[x] in a relationship
[ ] single and lovin it
[ ] crushing..sorta
[ ] single and looking for someone
[ ] just broke up... and so sad about it
[ ] fuck off blah

Online, you use:
[x] lol
[ ] sup
[ ] =D
[x] lmao
[ ] stfu
[ ] ty
[ ] j/k
[ ] ttyl
[ ] g2g
[ ] ^^
[ ] T_T
[ ] x_x
[ ] ^_^
[ ] XD


Cheers Cass.

20:12 - Tuesday, May. 10, 2005
randomness
can it be im not as funny as i thought?

*shock*

its my beloveds birthday on saturday!

what to get him what to get him!

we all know what he wants! what does ANY man want?
and yes it involves me naked.

or at least in the pretty lacy pink lingerie i bought.

its great - its his birthday and i get pressies! wooooo and a hoooo.

ok i'll admit it.

angus deayton is sexy.

there i said it.

bite me.

he wouldnt be interested in me, im not a coccaine snorting hooker.

nah, im a cocoa munching snooper.

:=))

i bought some new clothes today. aah i love internet shopping.

and http://www.ASOS.com is fab.

if you see the sparkly little shoulder bag ala jade jagger? yeah baby i bought it!

im being very random.

thats cool though.

*sings*

im bored.

i think my ondanstetron i got for my nausea is making me high.

:)


take me down to paradise city where the grass is green and the shops are pretty!

10:59 - Thursday, May. 05, 2005
democracy and sore bits
so i voted.

even with the sore wrist.

the sister of ortho still thinks its broken.

i dont.

and neither did the A+E doc.

so why is it so fucking painful?

oh and if the tories win im gonna hoover up michael howard in noo-noo.

just cos i want to.

18:19 - Tuesday, May. 03, 2005
quizzie
i did do Claire's quiz. It was after one of my nights, and I decided i would fill it out.

then works decided to crash.

so i done it again.....

1) What fictional character(s) do you take after/find affinity with?
I particularly like the Raggy Dolls. I love how they are not perfect and have little quirks that they use to their advantage and don’t get hung up on them. Its kinda a good thing to tell kids, and make sure that they don’t bother that they don’t look like the latest silly model.

2) How would you describe your religious/spiritual affiliation, or lack thereof?
Im Roman Catholic. I havent been to mass since my mum died, I sort of went on a ‘me and God don’t get on’ campaign after that. Im a little better now, but im still not as highly religious as I was. I feel that often it causes more problems than it sorts.

3) You can banish 5 irritating things to...away! What do you chose to banish? (Assuming that prejudice, racism, homophobia, all the big ones have been dealt with. I want to know what petty things bug you).

1. Jeremy Paxman. He’s an arsehole. If he interrupted me like that id lamp him on the chin.
2. Id love to destroy all hospital tv drama’s. cant you people understand - we are too busy to talk to each other at all times! We don’t have time for shags in the cupboard! And we wouldn’t want to as….
3. ….I would want to send all Junior Doctors back to medical school and remove the part where it says you have to be rude to the nurse in charge of theatre. You know what mate? Im tired too. Its 3am for me too. And I don’t want your shit on top of all this so shut your freakin mouth and deal with the fact im a WOMAN. Yes that’s right. I have a Vagina!
4. I would banish all concept of distance to the world of Hell. Im sure you all know why.
5. Kate Thornton.


4)What would immediately turn you off a diaryland blog?
Too much going on in it. Dark backgrounds and dark text that you need to highlight to read. Unless I really wanted to, id switch off. I also hate diary’s that are all “ooh im so fucking cool and the world sucks”. you know what? You think that - you aint cool.

5)Who is your strangest crush object (by everyone else's standards). Why do you find them attractive?
Data from Star Trek. Everyone wonders why. Well, I’ll tell you know, shall I?
He’s cute. He’s happy. He has a wonder of human life that would never get boring. He has a sense of dignity. He has the funniest one liners. He would lay his life for you. All he wants to experience is true love. he can make love all night
Hes just a super star.

Oh how I wish he wasn’t dead. L

6)You can pass one new law. What's the new law?
Is make those who could afford it pay £10 of their wages a month into a NHS fund, which would help pay for things in their local hospital as well as government help.

76,407 people in my constituency. it’s a lot of ten pounds isn’t it?

07:39 - Tuesday, May. 03, 2005
sleepy time
im tired.

im very tired.

im grumpy.

im almost transparent im so pale.

i feel sick.

i just want to sleep but my mind is working over time.

i hate nights.

:(


somehere over the rainbow blue birds fly,
if happy little blue birds fly beyond the rainbow way up high,
why oh why cant i?

07:23 - Monday, May. 02, 2005
A Letter....
Dear Mr Blair,

I would like to have the following things from you if i vote for you on thursday.

Please can I have more money to employ junior doctors as this will prevent me from having to do their work for them as well as my own.

Please may I also have more nurses, as I get very tired at work having to cover the work of three nurses because there is only enough money to employ one.

Id like to have a system where we could employ dedicated cleaners to scrub out theatres and make them all nice and clean after a case, as sometimes when you are scrubbed up and assisting a surgeon for a three hour case, you are very sleepy and dont wish to get a mop and a bucket and clean the place out. Also on this note, can we have more money to buy more scrubbing machines as we only have one and if we have more than one theatre to scrub out at the same time we are stuffed!

Can I have more beds for the patients. I dont like to see people who have undergone surgery waiting on hard trolleys for hours in our recovery room as there is no beds for them. its not very comfortable for them and it makes us nurses sad.

Can we also please have guidelines about our shift patterns as doing eight ten and a half hour shifts in a row is very tiring. it makes us nurses very sleepy and very grumpy.

I would also like to earn more money for what i do. You see, i work very hard, and i often have to stay at work after my time to cover shifts. I work a shift rotation and i need to work at times when everyone else is out partying. I have lots of friends who work in offices and finish at 5pm and they get paid much much more than i do.

But what i would really like from you, Mr Blair, is recognition.

Id really like you to stand up and say that you rely on the nurses to be the backbone of the NHS. That the place couldnt run without us, and if we ever were to go on strike we could cripple the country in hours.

But we wouldnt do that, Tony, as we care. Thats why we put up with the lack of money, the crap shifts, the long hours, the crap wages and management taking the piss out of us.

Because we care. Id really like to know that you did too.

Thank you Tony.

Love Katrina

16:20 - Friday, Apr. 29, 2005
i sleep now
sleepy girl, sleepy girl, why wont you go to sleep, sleepy girl, sleepy girl, your keeping me up


i have awoken from my slumber.

the silly police man banged so loud on my door i got a fright and jumped up and ran to the door.

i answered the door in my minnie mouse pyjamas.

oh joy.

no wonder he had a smirk on his face.

in other news... i had a dream today that John Leslie tried to rape me. he asked me to dance and i said yes. then he was on top of me saying i "wanted it"

not pleasant at all.

perhaps i should have told the police man at my front door?

"hey officer, i had a dream about a former tv presenter raping me"

ha!

in other news....

one night down....seven to go.

drat.

me sleeps now.

09:59 - Thursday, Apr. 28, 2005
tie a yellow ribbon round the old oak tree......
tie a yellow ribbon round the old oak tree
It's been six long days
Do ya still want me?

hello!!

im back home in bonny scotland!

its raining, its cold, im alone, i miss grant already and im now working nights for 8 nights in a row.

i think the word is "bleh"

good news though, im seeing grant in two weeks and we are possibly going to Rome for three nights as its his bday!

so that should be good.

i am le tired.

ive been up since 4am, so im heading to bed to get some ZZZZZZ before i go and save lives (.....) tonight at work!! :P

heeee!

so ......

glad to be home?

im not so sure.

i dont even know if this is my home anymore.

12:31 - Monday, Apr. 25, 2005
quizaroonie

1. What does your Dland nickname mean?
Urgh. I hate questions like this, its from me being Pink and an Angel. Not that hard to work out :P

2. Elaborate on your DLand layout.
Its balloons. I like balloons. Its colourful yet simple, its fresh and easy to read and its just fab-u-lous.

3. Did you lie about your age anywhere on the net?
Nah. Why would I? Im young enough to be angelic and old enough to naughty.

4. How many Dland buddies do you have?
11.

5. What is your current status?
Loved up, very much so.

6. What are you wearing right now?
Blue jeans, orange and white stripey socks, Minnie mouse t-shirt, baby-g watch.

7. What is life to you?
Happiness, love, light, joy, sadness, trouble, work, fight, contentment, religion and peace.

8. What is love to you?
When my boyfriend kisses my nose and tells me he loves me.

9. What kind of people do you hate most?
Racist bigots.

10. What type of people do you like most?
Talkative intelligent types.

11. What makes you happy?
Sunshine.

12. Are you musically-inclined?
Very much so.

13. What would you do if you woke up one morning and found out that the person you love most didn't exist, or was killed?
Its happened that ive awoken to find the person I love the most dead. It aint nice. And this is a stupid question, how the fuck do you think id be?

14. If you could go back in time and change ONE thing, what would you do?
My mum would be alive.

15. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what will you be?
A contented doggy.

16. Ever had a near-death experience?
no

17. Name ONE obvious personality quality you have.
caring

18. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
They, by Jem

19. Are you happy today?
Yes, I am, it’s a happy day, sun is shining, im bored and ive nothing to do. Yay!

20. Who will cut and paste this next?
Possibly Claire or Laura. But I don’t think they will get it from my diary, it will be from cass’s.
(doesn’t think anyone reads this diary)

21:49 - Sunday, Apr. 24, 2005
election 2005.....
hmmmmmm

Who Should You Vote For?

Who should I vote for?

Your expected outcome:

Liberal Democrat


Your actual outcome:



Labour 0
Conservative -12
Liberal Democrat 38
UK Independence Party 3
Green 23


You should vote: Liberal Democrat

The LibDems take a strong stand against tax cuts and a strong one in favour of public services: they would make long-term residential care for the elderly free across the UK, and scrap university tuition fees. They are in favour of a ban on smoking in public places, but would relax laws on cannabis. They propose to change vehicle taxation to be based on usage rather than ownership.

Take the test at Who Should You Vote For

10:06 - Sunday, Apr. 24, 2005
-
This is stolen from Cass and Claire.


1)Using your Current Initials, choose a different name for yourself.
Kermin Valancia Gertenstein. Just cos it makes me sound cooler

2)If you were born outside of your era, when would you want to be born and why?
I’d have loved to have been around in 1940s. I know this sounds strange to want to be around in a wartime, but I would have loved to experience it for myself and be part of that whole community spirit thing. Plus, you know, the dresses that women wore are very cute!

3)If you ran a store, what would you sell/have?
Id love to run a health education centre for underprivileged areas. I would have people there with information on cancers, heart disease and other health issues, free checkups for people and access to free medication for people who couldn’t afford the stupid £6.20 per item prescription charges.

4)What part in a movie would you love to play?
Id would have loved to have been Rose in ‘Titanic’, simply because she was a strong female character who knew her own mind and followed her heart. Plus again, the dresses she wore rocked.

5)In your opinion, why do people suck?
Cos they don’t care enough about others. There heads are too far up their own arses to give a damn about how other people are and what they need.
.

6)If you had your own state, what would you put on your new quarter?
I would have a little smiley face on them to cheer people up!

7)Whats the oldest article of clothing you own?
It’s a christening robe that has been handed down from my great great great grandmother. Its amazingly beautiful.

8) What piece of furniture have you replaced the most?
My bed. Just cos I get bored of the same design and I change from metal frames to wooden to half and half to four poster to divan to wooden again.

9)What instrument do you wish you could be more than great at?
I can play the piano and the drum kit, but id like to be able to play them a little better. Also, I’m a fairly good singer but id love to be “wow” and not “meh shes ok!”

10) Record, Tape or Cd?
CD’s. records tend to scratch and tapes suck.

11) What do you think would be the best concert ever? (max: 4 bands)
It would start off with Robbie Williams doing the warm up act, then on would come Damien Rice to play a few songs, followed by Queen with Freddie Mercury and then finally U2 would play.

12) What's the best part of your favorite movie?
When Jonathan and Emmy get married in Mannequin and ride through the city to the song “nothings gonna stop us now”. so cheesy but the best moment ever. Ever!!

13) What do you think is the most over-rated candy ever?
I’m with Claire on Skittles. I mean, they make you feel like you’ve not brushed your teeth in years and the e-numbers in them are unbelievable!

14) If you were writing out your will, who would you give your CD collection to?
Umm, my mate Kathleen cos she needs to get some taste.

15) If you could only debate two topics the rest of your life, what would they be?
Termination of Pregnancy and Euthanasia.

16)Out of your friends, who would you say you are most jealous of, artistically?
Lisa, as she has a flair for fashion that makes me sick. She could team a binbag up with plastic earrings and make it look like Stella McCartney’s latest range.

17) Most jealous of....intellectually?
Kathleen, she has a common sense factor that I cannot begin to comprehend. Also, Grant is so amazingly intelligent, I would love to be like him! He knows everything.


18) What do you collect?
Nothing really…..I have about 200 pairs of shoes but I don’t “collect” them!


19)What is broken that you have, that you wish was fixed?
My white gold and topaz bracelet, the catch has gone.

20)What do you do when you're home sick?
Well, usually if im home sick its serious as I hate being off work and things, so usually ive either got my head in a bowl throwing up or im in bed.


21) Why does this survey rock?
Its interesting to find different things out about people.


22) Story behind your username?
I have many. I love pink and I was on a hen night wearing wings and a halo that were pink and someone called me a pink angel, and so I went for Pink Angel. The InsanePixie was on which was thought up very quickly one day. I was at my boyfriends and he was at work, so I was arseing about on t’internet when I came across a site called “elijahfanforums”. I joined but I wanted a cool name and so I picked Pixie, which is what everyone calls me as im kinda small, and I went for Insane. Cos well, I kinda can be,
Incidentally I hate that name and would love to change it if I could.

23) Favourite item of clothing?
Dark indigo hipster bootleg Levi’s. so comfy and you can dress them up or down!!

24)Line from the last thing you wrote for someone?
“probably next Friday as im on nights before hand” to my mate Suzanne about joining a new gym with her and when I was free for induction.

25) A famous person you have met?
Andy Cameron. don’t know who he is, do you? Well, then you just arent cool like me.

26)Favorite way to waste time?
The WWW dot. As my granda called it. “can you get that WWW dot on that telly?”

27)Last thing you bought yourself?
Perfume. I bought Dior Tendre Poison, Acqa Di Jio, Very Valentino and L’air de temps.
Yay!

 

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